A friend said to me today...

Gamma: You seem to be unknowing on the outside about the world but I can see that inside you are as bitter about le world as me. LOL I'M SO PESSIMISTIC
Me: OH WOW. Thanks. You think I'm unknowing about the outside world–– outside of this bubble. Thanks.
Gamma: No no no. That's not what I meant. I mean on the outside you seem so carefree but inside it's so different. That duality is really interesting.

It really is interesting. Perhaps it's more of a psychological protection than rather an act I seem to put on.