Hehe. First time driving to physics (and on the freeway!). Hehe. Now I'm just eating lunch and shipping hw in the car xD

I dunno why I look orange. Haha oh well.

Zomg it's so hard to use iMovie and youtube. </3 And now it takes 62 minutes to upload a short 2-minute video. Pls. Pourquoi est-il tard?!

The Simpler Times

I'm feeling so nostalgic now. Let's analyze my roots instead of studying for the SAT! When I look back to freshmen year, I don't remember much about my relationships. Who could I count on? Of course, the people whom I talked to the most. Who did I like to talk to? The same people.

Barely talk to these guys anymore.
But when I do, I'm so nostalgic.

Okay you know what, I'm so done. Let's cut to the chase. Basically, friendships were simple and there were no insidious motives. I'm sick and tired of crap. Can there ever be a normal heart-to-heart conversation? I think I had one practically every night at COSMOS. Now that I'm back home I'm tired of the constant APLAC noise, competitive egos running all over the place, and the random sarcastic remarks.

Who are the people I can trust? I have no fucking idea. Not even my parents can qualify. Who is a normal human being? The closest Lynbrook person I can think of most definitely does not qualify as normal, but he is the most humane person I know as of right now. Well, as for my COSMOS friends, they're unfortunately not at Lynbrook.

Is there a single shred of honesty in the modern world? I sure as hell thought so in freshmen year. Little did I know that all my beliefs were about to be debunked...

Wau, 37 people all over the globe. Woah. <3

...Wait homecoming is in one week?!
so not ready for gauntlet

License and other fun stuff!

Lemme make this concise.

1. Licensed today<3 Drove to school and back. And then to mock trial and back. Hehe. I enjoy this. I don't have to wait for my parents and my grandpa doesn't have to drive me anymore.
2. Got a special email<3 ...with a deadline in October. (Oh dear)
3. Mock trial case is super duper cool. MB kids + Adderall overdose? Who would've thunk?
4. Elohel deadlines
5. Elohel more deadlines

ELOHEL WHY IS EVERYTHING IN OCTOBER.

I also just found out that the SAT is in one week. I weep.

Hm, I had a few thoughts... Your diction conveys so much. I'm just unsure.

Why is schoolloop always down?
Can we actually switch to a different provider?
It's literally allocating more money to the servers around us. Pls.
Pls. I bet our school district already pays a fortune to get their service, and it fails the students at least once per week.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I don't know why but my eyes are so extraordinarily dry. And I'm sniffly. The start of the symptoms point to an allergy but my lack of sleep points to a cold. Whyyyyyyyy.

Redemption

So I guess I didn't COMPLETELY botch last year. Actually.

Redemption time. I'm focused. No emotional stress (or minimal). I WILL prove it to them that I can excel. I can perform under pressure. I am confident, poised, and ready to go.

.75 thermos of tea
1 giant can of milk tea

I'm sleepy and it's only 10pm. I got home an hour ago.
Omg. Can I just get more sleep pls?

Biggest Heart Attack Evar

I thought I lost my Anthem book. Omg. Literally 75 pages of legit annotations gone down the drain.

But it's okay! It's actually in my grandparents' car trunk. Haha. In addition to phone/bag/oboe check, I guess I gotta add a check for APLAC books.

Best annotations ever.

Ambivalent About Band

Redemption time?
Or damnation?

"Happy birthday, Mom!"

"Get. Out."
giggle giggle giggle

Lol what did I even do this weekend.
I'm an idiot
why did i waste it
ffkfkfkfkfkfkffkfkfkfkfkfkfkfkfkfkffk.

I need to go to the library more.
fkfkfkfkfkfkffkfkfkfkffkfkfkfkfkfk.

Why can't I actually talk to these ppl at school so I won't feel the need to talk to them at home.
fkfkfkfkfkfkfkffkfkfkfkfk.

C'est la Vie avec Denise

 me:  dude we hid little vaches
everywhere in our ppt
 Kevin:  LOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
WTF
i think u mean
cows
 me:  LOLOLOL
NO LITTLE VACHES

"When I came to the US, I thought that I'd wear a suit and carry a briefcase to work."

"Dad, you're on the wrong side of the country."

You know your neighborhood is pretty cool when your next-door neighbors are blasting "Sing, sing sing" at their 6-year old's birthday party.

Can I be friends?

RIP SEPT. 20TH

I've gotten to that point where I don't know how to talk to college graduates.
Can I please not be socially awkward and learn?

Noah

I'm unsure about how to embed the video directly here.... anyways...

Please watch this!

Noah, a short film that debuted at the Toronto International FIlm Festival, illustrates the flitting attention span and lack of true connection in digital culture more clearly than anything else in recent memory. (Warning: NSFW)

I should be one of those leadership conference keynote speakers.
Man, it's kind of fun. LOL

Pssssssst, hidden hobbies lie everywhere.

Saratoga Library is beautiful.

Oboy, this is awkward.

Tu me manques! </3
Parlez-moi demain?

I crie every day.
History test on ch. 3-10
Who said USH wasn't hard?

Feeling Accomplished!

Until I remember the SAT. fk.

My arms are super sore.
Beaucoup d'advertisements! :) :) :) :)
Mid-Autumn festival <3

I'm so tired.
And I have USH 2nd period. Sigh, don't even have time to study for it in band.
Oh well, more time to annotate?

Little Fibs

Nerd Camp!

On SAT weekend
djkfldsfjkl;sfjdls;kfjdsalk
can I go?

depends on how depressed I am after the SAT ._.

Oh, Harsh Realities

Neha: oh well junior year
gotta suck it up and stick it out for 1 year
bc these are the easiest years of our lives
me: i know LOL
i keep telling myself that ^
yet i keep crying myself to sleep at night.

The Cab<3
great band.

Why, How, What?

An amazing TED talk.

"People don't buy what you do; they buy why you do it. What you do simply serves as the proof of what you belief."
"They took his cause and made it their own... How many people showed up for him? Zero. They showed up for themselves."
"There are leaders and there are those who lead."

Guys, pls. Can we not have a block of text and off-topic information and crazy images on our ppt? Damn, now I have to go back and fix everything.

Met up Weian for lunch today.
I'm going to miss her. :') Best of luck! Own it up at Uchic.

Today

Is the greatest day evar.
Hehehehehehehehehehe.

Ahhh!!!!

:') I don't even know what to say.
In the face of self-doubt, I scream with happiness and glee, jump up and down, twirl all around.

Define Loneliness

More on that coming up.
Interuhsting conversation...

"Can you just shut up about it already?"

No, not really. I don't think anybody really went through the same crap as I did. Well, of course with the exception of the other side of the conflict (kinda?). Ouch, I don't know. It's getting better other than the fact that there was no closure. It bothers me that the other side feels the need to sneak around campus. It really bothers me.

~Draw your weapon. Cowboy show off style

The first line! Omg that's where it came from. Rumor of War!

So Excited

My amazon order came today. RUMOR OF WAR<3

And my physics book came too <3 just in time for my test on Monday. Ahhahsjdpemfjaslmds. BOOKS!!!

That Time of the Year

It's that time of the year again!
The time when the leaves start falling and the wind starts blowing dust into your face. The leaves swirl around your feet as you tromp your way down to Howden. Cup of tea in one hand and binder in the other. Scarves! Warm peacoats! Boots!

Ah, it's almost winter. Then the clouds gather overhead, casting this beautiful silver shade over everything. You practically taste the "rain smell" (holla at Seike kids).

Yes, it's that time of the year. This fall/winter will be undeniably different. I think I'm going to end up huddling with Sanjna after mock trial practices (oh sigh) and spend more time staring outside my window. Ah! The weather is just so beautiful. It brings back certain memories, but I'd say I feel an overall positive nostalgic ambivalence.

Oh, life.

ELOHEL CHEM LAB ELOHEL SCALES TEST

ELOHEL
I CAN'T EVEN.

"I feel so bad for you. You tried so hard, but your results were just so off I couldn't give you full score." ~Doc Rock

omg.

SCALES TEST
FUCK ME.
LOL THAT'S ALL I HAVE TO SAY
"uh... what comes after A... OH YEAH D"

omfg.

Junior year has officially begun.

ELOHELELOHELELOHELELOHELELOHELELOHELELOHELELOHEL

1. Read your supplemental novel. Do not select the Great Gatsby. Novel need to be annotated as the summer readings. Exam is on 9/26. I will leave this week open for you to spend most of your time reading and annotating your novel.

ELOHEL PHYSICS.

09/11 Chapter 4
Lab 3: Projectile
Motion.
Test 1 (Ch 1-2)

HAHA.A
HAHAHA.
FDFJKLDSFSKL;FDSLKA;FSL;A
JDFSK;KDSJDFSAL
SDFJDFSALDFLJK
DSAJKL
.
.
.

I can't believe I missed the first lecture. Fk.

"Your Call" by Secondhand Serenade

Oshit

I think I found out why I value "external love" so highly.
I got it. CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT WOAHHH.
Okay sorry. lol
I'm not open enough to post why on this page.

I might be stressed, but I'm talking to coo' kids. They got my back. Thanks dipdip.

Bittersweet

I can't even remember how he used to say my name.

AIM

I get why people use AIM.
I want to be able to chat people without seeing my newsfeed or getting distracted by random emails.
Damn dude, unfortunately I don't know of any service that can integrate different chatting platforms...

...

;)

Resolutions and Goals to Combat ... Life

Okay, so I've realized that for the past few months, my whole entire world has been turned upside down by TV. Yes, TV. Those little shows that people watch? Bad. Very bad. It's addicting, and I am and probably could qualify as a TV addict. I don't mean that I think about my shows every second of the day, but I would take watching TV over homework before 8pm. That's pretty bad. For example, yesterday I got off at 12:30, came home at 1:00, fell asleep while reading AOI, watched some TV, ate some dinner while watching TV, did my stats lab, watched an episode...

You get the point. I could be sleeping before 1am! There's absolutely no reason for me to be like this. And now I just got the urge to watch another episode. Ugh. But it's Friday? Can that be my justification?

I blame it on Revenge. I didn't want to watch it and my mom literally sat me down and forced me to.
Ugh. My TV problem is definitely a slippery slope, considering that it also swallowed up a large part of my childhood and caused my eyes to be as bad as they are now.

Ouch.
Sorry, what was the point of this post again?

Oh yes, resolutions and goals to combat this issue (sleepiness, TV, time allocation all into one set!).

1. To get ready for homework, after school, I'll lie down and try to take a nap. If I fail to under 20 minutes, then I shall do some creative writing. Creative writing is good for the soul. I am absolutely convinced of that.

I remember when I was excited to write fiction for class. For Seike's Walam Olum, damn dude! I was super rusty. I must never let myself get that rusty.

Oh, and of course, creative writing overall can inspire wonderful ideas! It'll help my writing style. I'll develop my own voice. I don't know. All I know is that creative writing helped so much when I was little and now I'm gonna implement that method to up my lifestyle.

2. Sleep early on one of the weekend nights and then get up the next morning for a run. I gotta stay active. There's no PE to force me to run and exercise. With Blaschke not caring about tardiness as my 1st period, I have no reason to run in the mornings. I stress eat. I must not gain weight. Otherwise, I'll be very sad. I don't even want to wear these shorts anymore.

3. Cut down on tea consumption. I can't get hooked onto caffeine at such a young age. I just can't.

4. Memorize some vocab every day. Must practice those words!

5. Somehow create a goals/dream board. I gotta remind myself of my central values. Everyday, I'm digging up little pieces of what I used to be. I must say... I kind of like that girl a little better. She dreamt a little bit more. She was more confident. She wasn't overly giggly nor did she talk at super fast speeds in uncomfortable situations. Oh yeah, and she approached life with a positive attitude!

6. Have a positive attitude!

Yay.
Let's see if I can actually keep this list. Can I start tomorrow? Pls. Pls. Pls. Pls.
Ugh. I don't know. Maybe one episode. Yes, only one. :)
No.
Yes.
No.
Ugh, but it's a Friday!

At times like these I really want to sleep, get my energy up, and then start working. But no. My sleep cycle is so messed up I can't sleep yet. Ugh.

On the flip side, spent the afternoon with BChan. Holla at my homeqrl! Haha, no it was great to just chill with her. We ate in-n-out together!

Am I Normal?

Subject of today's stat's lesson!
But also...
Rachel (senior) apparently slept at 2 every day in her junior year.
Am I normal yet?!

Go Back to the Time When...

• I was productive.
• I had a goal and I was motivated to achieve it.
• I had hopes and dreams and the belief that I can do this!
• I didn't have to censor my words.
• I knew who my friends were.
• I believed in the good of people.
• I thought that we were all happy and could be forever.

I want to go back to the time when I believed in myself.

LAWLS LAWLS

55 PAGES OF NOTES FOR REGULAR USH
WHWHAHHFDSKLFSAFJDSFS;A
HAHAHAHAHAH.A
OMGGGG
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

<3 YOU HOWDEN TOO.
SPREAD THE LOVE
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

KP:eunoh complained to me today about howden and he was like u guys are like doing exactly the same stuff as us GG

AOI

"It did not hurt him half as much to tell May an untruth as to see her trying to pretend that she had not detected him." (Wharton)

zomg zomg zomg zomg. and then Newland dreams about having May "die early" so last he ccould be free! omg. I can't even.

This is such a sad book. I crie so hard. It's all about infidelity, so every word is like a dagger. It's just so tragic. I skimmed it the first time, but now reading sparksnotes (hehe) I SEE SO MUCH MORE. Can I just reread everything now?

From SparksNotes:
Archer's son asks him if it was true that he had once been in love with the Countess. The son continues by remarking that May had told him the day before she died that Archer had "given up the thing he most wanted" when she had asked him to. Emotionally, Archer responds that she had never asked him.

She never had to ask him! Jk, twas implied by Society. Or perhaps, Archer is just too fearful to pursue the affair. (Arghrhkglfadk;lf;)

It's so sad. So tragic. The same motifs repeat throughout society today. Argh.

Les Misérables

Je viens de finir "Les Misérables". C'est un extraordinaire film. Je pleure beaucoup. J'espère que vous savez pourquoi.

Jk

Not doing better? I'm glad I woke up before it got worse.

Doing better

Seeing your arms around another girl's?
Nbd as I thought it would be. I only got like a little shiver.
And like I can only not feel my legs. That's good
LOL.

No seriously though. It's getting better. I mean... what else did I expect?
Oh, that last thought made me feel a lot better. x]

Awesome Covers

My friend did an amazing cover of "Oh, Fionna" (originally sang by NPH). Uh-mazing. Check him out. Respect++


Also, Jeni Suk did a great cover of "Wildfire" by SBTRKT. It's so gr9 I think it's even better than the original.

Yep, yep. Listen!

Reactions to Obama's Proposal of War

Kind of censored names?

Cwg:  the us
 Sent at 12:03 AM on Sunday
  CWg:  to act
or not to act
ethically morally
 me:  what do yo uthink?
 CWg:  strategicaly
i honestly think the world community won't act
... somehow the convo goes to debate

and then SwgClutcher went off about WWIII

 Zhy:  do you mean syria?
 Sent at 12:07 AM on Sunday
 me:  indeed.
do you think we should invade
 Zhy:  well i don't really like war

peace? hm, i only wish ^

I personally would like to avoid war. If there's any any other approach we can try, we should take it. Honestly, I'm not sure what we'd show by bombing an already war-ravaged country. I question the effectiveness of it. If we're going to start another war just to save face in the global community, please, let's rethink this.

I'm not even sure how much evidence we have of this alleged chemical attack. I just hope Congress has enough rationale to do the right thing with whatever (or lack of) evidence we have. Please, just make the right choice.