To whom it may concern:

Our friendship spawned from our intelligent conversation. We discussed everything... from science to religion to literature to politics. You were the one person who held these beautiful conversations with me. But that was back in Novemeber. That was a few months ago.

It seems like those times are archaic in our history. But believe it or not, those were the times that I miss the most. It's what made me love you the way I did. I'm still trying to hold on those feelings. Not that it's entirely your fault... you're making it really hard though.

I know. I could've done more to involve and engage you. However, whenever we do have contrasting opinions, you back off from a fight. I absolutely hate that about you. Conversation and relationships can be built through dissent. They can especially be strengthened through discussions. Nowadays, you're just talking about random gossips that, frankly, I have no interests in.

Maybe this is who you are. You like to stalk people's affairs via Facebook for entertainment. Fine, I'll accept that part of you. But please, do not involve me in such frivolous matters. Call me a hypocrite. Sometimes, I do the same to you (concerning other topics), and I am deeply sorry about that.

My point is... it's been a long time since we've had an intelligent conversation. Can we go back to those times when we actually had something to talk about? My confidante (you know her) says that those conversations happened back then because you tried to capture my attention. Now that I'm your friend, does that mean that we stop talking about such matters? It seems like it does. You've named science your escape-- your Allison-free zone. You've named any other topics uninteresting to you. (Oh dear, sorry, I would have to take out religion out of our conversations. We fight far too much about that in an unhealthy way.)

What happened between now and then? Why are we like this? I'm absolutely dying to actually talk to you about something interesting and mind-boggling. I loved you for it. It's what set you apart. But now that it's gone, I don't know if I can still say that. I just need to know... what happened?