Right now, I'm pretty sad. Or at least, I feel pretty lonely. I feel like this year I've been deprived of intelligent conversations. After spending a whole summer with these impressive people, I guess I would say that my standards have been raised. It's like I have been dumped from this beautiful haven of knowledge to this highly competitive public school, in which people either don't try/care or don't like to keep their mind on such matters.
Being in a literature class comprised of 25 unmotivated (or shy) students has pretty much deprived me of book discussions. (Seeking these discussions myself outside of the classroom is so terribly hard!) Today, I was able to talk to my CAPE friend about literature and language in general. I think he pretty much made my day. It was so great just to be able to talk and discuss, to have him actually challenge my ideas, and to expose me to new ones. It was just absolutely magnificent.
I also spoke with another old CAPE bud about debate, Model UN, and mock trial. That was also really fun. Haha. I don't know! I just feel like speaking to them offers so much more information and value than talking to some people at my own school. It may be because of our history, but then again, if I look back at the conversation, I'm sure that I'd find that they actually engage in conversation.
Epiphany! I now realize why I want to go to a summer program! It entails meeting new people and exchanging new ideas. Maybe, I don't exactly enjoy Lynbrook, because most people have the same view on things. Very rarely do I find someone who has contrasting interpretations... or very rarely do I find someone who is willing to share their own unique thoughts. It's an absolute rarity in Lynbrook, which is one of the things I hate! Perhaps, it'll change next year. I really hope it will!
Without meaning, words are nothing but senseless drivel.
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